Tears

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I have so much tears waiting to pour out of me. But they all just sit there. Inside. Waiting til the cup is too full that I scream.


I want good for Black women (and Black men. hah! I feel safe to say this now). But I don't know what to do. We have so many incidences of racism, and yet we react the same way. When will that change? Is it doing us any good. We complain. Cuss. Get glum. Then, we move on. No progress. No change. Its safe for both the perpetrator and the victim. The perpetrator gets no repremand, no upheaval in their lives and the victim gets to be safely a victim without having to exert effort into changing things.


But this is not normal. We should not take racism this way. There are ways we can fight this. And when I say fight it doesn't mean pick up a stick and slam it down hard on a person. There are ways and there are ways.


Recently there was the incident of an Ethiopian boy who tried to go to a bathhouse. The boy was only 13, bar mitzvah. The attendant there refused him entry, and when the boy ignored him, the attendant went after the boy physically hitting him in the face. The attendant then proceeded to chase the boy home and assualted his brother and aunt. What a mad man!


Personally, I think we need to mobilize and get Ethiopian, African, African Americans going to that bathhouse (mikvah) more frequently so they will get used to it.


I get so saddened by all the "F*** you, Israel!" and "we don't really have an Israel" comments by Black Jews. Well, part of me understands that they are taking out frustrations. But to associate that incident with Israel and Judaism and then to think Israel is not theirs, Judaism is not theirs --that is a problem on two accounts. (1) first problem is Israel is for the Jews (sorry haters, take your story elsewhere please). It doesn't matter if they are white or black. And if a white Jew makes trouble for a Black Jew, that Black Jew must not mentally take it as if that country is not theirs ---that's giving it to them, and relinquishing their rights. Instead the brain pattern I suggest is "what to do with this nudnick?!" and (2) even Judaism should not be "given" exclusively to white Jews only. That person, or group, or society is the problem, not the land, the country, the medina, nor Judaism.


Things can get so bad, many Blacks search for social acceptance -which is a natural need- and they will run to where ever, even in the arms of Islam. Islam is fine for Arabs. I personally don't understand how a Black person can willingly submit themselves to a religion that still sees Blacks as slaves. That only have one word for a black person which is "Abd" which means "slave". Where to this day slaves are still being taken and is permissable. Who's wordings in their holy writings disparages them, calling them "raisin head" and saying that if they take on this religion, then their heart is more gross than that of a donkey. So many Black people were taken as slaves by Muslims so long ago, just as in America, but you hardly find many dark faces in Arab lands. What happened to all of them? Still, what can I say. I find it interesting, but perhaps there is some benefit for them there that I don't know about.


But for those who embrace Judaism, since its not totalitarian coming down from one person, please don't conflagrate the religion and the people. Whether there are Jews or not, Judaism stays Judaism. And there are beautiful writings to be explored-- positive things about Blacks. But when will we get to that point? When will we delve into these? And might there be beautiful writings in Islam about Blacks but, again, Blacks are not searching and delving and exploring???


Sometimes I feel very alone. With nobody to discuss the things I see or read about. Nobody to impart it to. Will it all just disappear when I shut up....until the next lone Black Jewess or Jew discovers these gems and try to spread them only to be ignored because there is a pattern that must be followed and any deviation from that is a disturbance?



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